Do I have an opportunity to win him back?

I'm not inlove with my husband and realized that I was in love with my bestfriend. I am going to find a way to tell my husband that I want to end this marriage. (Brief history: He was verbally and emotionally abusive. He cheated on me and I forgave him and he did it again. I moved out and got engaged to my bestfriend. I felt horrible seeing the person I loved hurt the way he did and thought he might have a heartache because of the signs he was showing. I went back to him.) I cancelled my wedding with my bestfriend of ten years and returned to my ex partner of six years who I married instead him. Today, I finally had the nerve after 6 months to call him and speak to him in person. I apologized and told him I made a mistake, he did not deserve what I did to him nor his family since my actions crushed them too. He stated I had played him for a fool and what really hurts him is that he will always be in love with me and he walked out. Do I have an opportunity to win him back? Please help.